BEENAWHILE.

hmm, this week has been, a little twisted o_0 woohoo, the holidays. but to me, it really didn't feel like Christmas. haha. i wanted to do something for OTHERS for a change this year, but i didn't get to. next year, maybe? anyway, i've been REALLY drained out for a long time. like, i'm not giving any effort at all into anything. everything and everyone around me seems to be going further and further. and i'm just stuck here, not knowing my next move. i don't even, know who i am anymore o_0 i mean,i thought i did, but i guess not. i'm not thay enthusiastic about life nowadays,

AND IT SEEMS AS IF I'VE COMPLETELY GIVEN UP ALTOGETHER.

hope not. i mean, i feel out of place. there you go! that's the phrase i was looking for. and it's exactly my point. i feel like i'm changing, you know, hatching from my cacoon, and not even knowing it. shoot. maybe everyone else is changing, not me.