Yeah, I know when I'm not wanted.

I'M JUST TOO PARANOID. always thinking about what other people think of me. i mean, i get freaked out when people just stare at me for a matter of more than 3 seconds. they'll be just staring at me and then i'd just go "WHAAAT?" i dont know what it is=T but lately i've been feeling like I DON'T BELONG. and i feel so stupid when people give me that elevator look and i can read their eyes, and they're saying "what are you doing here?" ugh. today, during chorus. i was doing the drums and i looked around and i told myself "I DON'T WANT THIS." seriously, mann. if i'm in a place where i'm not happy and i'm not making anyone happy, then there's no point in sticking around. if i could go somewhere else, i'd do it in a heartbeat. but it's my last year here at CLC, and i'm just sucking it up. but i just wish things were like they used to be two years ago. I MEAN, the biggest thing i had to worry about was what to wear to the school dance! now life has really hit me in the face and i don't think i'm taking it so well. i don't know where i'm going and i don't know where i want to end up but hey, maybe i'm not destined to have that EXCELLENT future everyone is fantasizing over. oh well, i'm handling, and for now, that's all that matters.